And so I ask myself, how do I deal with myself? I'm trying to hold on to Allah and make Him my best friend but I long also for dunya love. How can I reconcile depending on Allah alone and yearning from someone to rely on here? We have friends but it's not the same. I feel such a detachment from everyone. How do I reach the place where I don't want anyone or is this unrealistic expectations? One thing is for sure,I need to help myself. The only problem now that I'm overwhelming myself trying to get back to where I once was Allahu musta'an