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as salamu alaykum ,
subhanAllah tests r mad! from 1 to another in a blink of an eye, but i had enough subhanAllah im tired lol, i have decided just to chill, no more drama, from now on i need to protect myself, just do what im supposed to do, i need to study, i need to strengthen my reationship with Allah, i have neglected it far too much and im suffering the concequences. Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal, you know subhanAllah we forget, we get so caught up in this duyna, actions become almost robotic, khushu is lost, ihsan not felt O( may Allah aid n strengthen us ameen

The Conditions of Taubah are as Follows

1. Cessation of the sin.
2. Regret and remorse of the heart.
3. Firm resolve not to return to the sin.
4. Returning the right of the oppressed, in that which is
particular to the rights of man.

Alee (radiAllahu anhu) who said that Aboo Bakr (radiallahu anhu) told him
that he heard the Messenger of Allaah (sal Allahu alayhi was sallam) say:
There is no servant who commits a sin and then he
purifies himself (wudoo') and then prays two rakaahs
and then seeks forgiveness of Allaah except that
Allaah forgives him.
[Ahmad, Aboo dawood eng trans. Vol. 1 #1516 and others]

subhanAllah my heart is killing me, astaghfirullah,

Al-Istighfaar (Seeking Repentance)
Shaykh ul-Islaam Ibn Taymiyah rahimahullaah
Majmoo al-Fataawaa 10/88-90

The Messenger of Allah, sallallahu `alaihi wa sallam, said:

"The master of invocations for forgiveness is that the servant says:

O' my 'ilãh You are my Lord, there is no 'ilãh but You. You created me, and I am your bondservant, and I will stick to my covenant and promise [of faith and sincere obedience] to You, as to my ability. I seek refuge in You from the evil of what I have done, I acknowledge, to You, your bounties upon me, and I acknowledge, to You, my sin. Thus forgive me, for none forgives sins except You.

Whoever says this as he enters upon evening, then, dies that night, he would enter Paradise; and if one says this as he enters upon morning, then, dies that day, he would enter Paradise." [Al-Bukhari]

The servant is always in the blessings of Allah, which necessitate thankfulness, and in sinfulness, which requires seeking forgiveness. Both of these matters are required and essential for the servant at all times, as the servant does not cease to alternate between Allaah's (various) favors and blessings, and does not cease to be in need of repentance and seeking forgiveness.

This is why the Master of the Children of Adam, and the Leader of the Pious, Muhammad, sallallahu `alaihi wa sallam sought forgiveness in all circumstances. He said in an authentic hadeeth reported by al-Bukhari:

"O people, repent to your Lord, for verily I seek forgiveness from Allah and repent to him more than seventy times in a day."

It is reported in Saheeh Muslim that he said: "I seek forgiveness one hundred times in a day." [Muslim]

`Abdullah ibn `Umar said: We counted in a single sitting the Messenger of Allah, sallallahu `alaihi wa sallam, saying one hundred times:

My Lord, forgive me and accept my repentance, verily you are Acceptor of Repentance, Oft-Forgiving. [Ahmad, Abu Dawood, Ibn Maajah]

This is why seeking forgiveness was legislated at the end of actions. Allah the Exalted said:

"Those who seek forgiveness before dawn (at late night)." [Aal `Imraan (3):17]

Some of them said: "Give life to your nights by performing Prayer, and when the time of late night comes, concern yourself with seeking forgiveness."

It is related in the Saheeh that the Prophet, sallallahu `alaihi wa sallam, when he finished his Prayer, he would seek forgiveness three times and say:

[O' my 'ilãh You are 'As-Salãm [One free from flaws], and from You comes Salãm [peace, or safety], blessed are Thee O' haver of glory and kindness.] [Muslim]

Allah says:

"And seek forgiveness of Allah. Indeed, Allah is Forgiving and Merciful." [al-Muzammil (73):20]

(Even) After the Prophet conveyed the Message, fought in the path of Allah with true jihad, and performed what Allah ordered more than anyone else, Allah commanded his Prophet (to perform istighfar), as He the Exalted said:

"When the victory of Allah has come and the conquest, and you see the people entering into the religion of Allah in multitudes, then exalt [Him] with praise of your Lord and ask forgiveness of Him. Indeed, He is ever Accepting of repentance." [An-Nasr (110):1-3]

This is why the Deen is established with Tawheed and Istighfaar, as Allah the Exalted said:

"Alif Lam Ra. [This is] a Book whose verses are perfected an then presented in detail from [one who is] Wise and Acquainted. [Through a messenger, saying], "Do not worship except Allah. Indeed, I am to you from Him a warner and a bringer of good tidings," and [saying], "Seek forgiveness of your Lord and repent to Him, [and] He will let you enjoy a good provision." [Hood(11):1-3]

And Allah says:

"So take a straight course to Him and seek His forgiveness." [Fussilat (41):6].

And He says:

"So know [O Muhammad], that there is no deity except Allah and ask forgiveness for your sin and for the believing men and believing women." [Muhammad (47):19]

This is why it was it came in a narration: "The Shaytan said: People are destroyed with sins, and they destroy me with 'Laa ilaha ill Allah' and seeking forgiveness." [Reported by Ibn Abi Asim and Abu Ya`la, but its chain is a fabrication].

Yoonus, `alayhis salam, said:

"There is no deity except You; exalted are You. Indeed, I have been of the wrongdoers." [al-Anbiyaa' (21):87]

The Prophet, sallallahu `alaihi wa sallam, when he would ride his mount, he would praise Allah, then say Allahu Akbar three times, then say:

[I testify that there is no 'ilah except You, Glorified are You, I have transgressed upon myself, so forgive me] [Abu Dawood and at-Tirmidhi, who said it is hasan saheeh]

Expiation of a gathering with which the gathering is completed is (the supplication):

[Glorified are You O' my 'ilãh and I am in Your praise, I testify that there is no 'ilah except You, I ask Your forgiveness and repent unto You.] [Abu Dawood and At-Tirmidhee, who said it is hasan saheeh]

Allah knows best, and may His blessings and peace be upon [the Prophet] Muhammad.

may Allah forgive n have mercy upon us ameen. from now inshaa Allah everything by the book, i cannot afford to play games with my deen, im weak now, i need to build myself, and it makes sense with getting to know Allah all over again, my foundations r still shaking, knowledge i had, ii've been caused to forget and this is from my own hands, my memeory is bad, so i take what was advised and leave off sin inshaa Allah may Allah aid ameen, may Allah strengthen all my sisters n brothers going through a hard time ameen, Allah never gives up on us, is us who gives up on Him, alahmdulillah for having the best companion, listener, guardian, protector subhanAllah without His mercy id have no hope. mayHe grant us all good ends ameen, now time to be serious inshaa Allah, trust is placed, and good rewards anticipated subhanAllah i truely do love Allah. Alhamdulillah rememeber in duas pls wasalamu alaykum