And so I ask myself, how do I deal with myself? I'm trying to hold on to Allah and make Him my best friend but I long also for dunya love. How can I reconcile depending on Allah alone and yearning from someone to rely on here? We have friends but it's not the same. I feel such a detachment from everyone. How do I reach the place where I don't want anyone or is this unrealistic expectations? One thing is for sure,I need to help myself. The only problem now that I'm overwhelming myself trying to get back to where I once was Allahu musta'an

As Salamu alaykum. I see the only way to live a good life is by putting Allah first.for the last few years I've been putting my nafs first. I guess in a way trying to block out reality and force life to be how I want it to be. I wanted the happiness I thought I had and SubhanAllah how I was tested. Part of me feels empty but I know I have to fill this gap with the remembrance of Allah. I do wish to find support in the dunya but I feel comfort in not depending on people. I have patience and I hope my Lord rewards me for this. I need to trust Him and rely on Him more. I feel like I tainted myself by having weak emaan. Embarrassed even SubhanAllah, may Allah forgive me for being more embarrassed in front of the people than I am in front of Him. I want to be proud of myself again,but proud without pride.i want to be proud that I'm trying my best to please Allah but in a way that my intention is that it's for Allah alone. May Allah help me and us all ameen. I keep forgetting I will be accountable, this scares me. May Allah guide my children also ameen

As Salamu alaykum, SubhanAllah I got so lost.i come and see this site now and all the reminders which I should have heeded. But how we love our nafs,and how our nafs destroy us. All I can do is thank Allah for holding onto me. SubhaNAllah I never purposely wanted to be bad but we get caught up in life and lose all sense of direction. I wanted dunya and dunya surely distracted me. I guess one conclusion I came to is that dunya plays its part too. dunya can't be ignored as we have to live and in this life we will get tested. I really do love Allah because SubhanAllah all I have to do is ask his forgiveness sincerely. I find myself when I Find Him. Being alone isn't a good place to be. We can try to be strong and think we are ok but slowly slowly emaan will weaken without reminders. I have to fight myself now and also make time. I live like there will be no consequences, I tried to ignore but you can't hide from the truth. I'm so grateful Allah never let me go, I pray HE never lets me go. May Allah help us ameen

Alhamdulillah

If you find yourself lazy upon obedience to Allah then be afraid that Allah ...

The following is a summary translation taken from sahab.net Link: http://www.sahab.net/forums/showthread.php?t=351059 If you find yourself lazy upon obedience to Allah then be afraid that Allah is averse to your obedience By Sheik Uthaymeen (rahimahullaah) Translated by Rasheed Barbee Sheik Muhammad ibn Salih ibn Uthaymeen may Allah have mercy upon him said in his explanation of the book, Aqeedah of Ahlus Sunnah wa Jamaat in tape number seven… وَلَكِن كَرِهَ اللهُ انبِعاثَهُمْ فَثَبَّطَهُمْ وَقيلَ اقْعُدوا مَعَ القاعِدينَ …but Allah was averse to their being sent forth, so He made them lag behind, and it was said (to them), "Sit you among those who sit (at home)." (Chapter 9 verse 46) Oh Allah save us…this verse is extremely dangerous and the scale is in His saying, ‘but Allah was averse to their being sent forth’ meaning in battle. {…and it was said (to them), "Sit you among those who sit (at home)} So beware and examine yourself, and if you see yourself being lazy upon doing good deeds then be afraid that Allah is averse to you putting forth good deeds. Then look at yourself a second time, and make yourself patient and compel yourself upon obedience. So today you do acts of obedience and you are averse to it but tomorrow you do it willingly and effortlessly. The important point is that this is a severe warning for the one who finds himself hindered from doing good deeds, so perhaps Allah the Exalted is averse to this man being from His obedient slaves therefore He hindered him from obedience. We ask Allah to assist us upon His remembrance and upon thanking Him, and upon good worship. Another point in this verse, {…but Allah was averse to their being sent forth, so He made them lag behind, and it was said (to them), "Sit you among those who sit (at home).} It was not said … (وقال) and He said (to them), "Sit you among those who sit (at home)} Because Allah does not order with evil, rather (قيل) it was said to them sit at home. Who said stay at home? The soul (says this), no, it wasn’t Allah that said it, but rather it was the soul. The person’s soul speaks to him saying, ‘Sit at home, don’t go this time go another time. And satan hinders from good And evil companions hinder from good So for this reason the doer of the action was removed from this sentence, meaning the one who said the statement so that it would be more comprehensive. Therefore those who say, ‘Sit you among those who sit (at home) are numerous and we mentioned three of them; the soul, satan, and evil companions. (Explanation of the book, Aqeedah of Ahlus Sunnah wa Jamaat, in tape number seven, second side of the tape from minute 3:16 to 5:22) (editing: writing 'rahimahullaah' after the name of the shaykh)0j

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If a man is wise and fears Allah, This will keep him too busy to concern himself with the faults of others, Just as the weak and sick person is too concerned with his own pain, To think of the pain of others

"The slave is not afflicted with a punishment greater in severity then the hardening of the heart and being distant from Allah...

ibn al Qayyim al Jawziyyah’s al Fawaaid (p 111-112) "The slave is not afflicted with a punishment greater in severity then the hardening of the heart and being distant from Allah. For the Fire was created to melt the hardened heart. The most distant heart from Allah is the heart which is hardened. If the heart becomes hardened, the eye becomes dry. If four matters are exceeded in quantity, beyond what is necessary, the heart shall become hardened: Food, sleep, speech and sexual intercourse. A body afflicted by disease does not derive nourishment from food or water, similarly a heart diseased by desire does not benefit from admonishment and exhortation. Whosoever desires to purify his heart, then let him prefer Allah to his desires. The heart which is clinging to its desires is veiled from Allah, commensurate to the degree that it is attached to them, the hearts are the vessels of Allah upon his earth, hence the most beloved of them to him, are the ones most compassionate, pure and resistant to deviation. They (the transgressors) preoccupied their hearts [in the pursuance] of the Dunya, would that they preoccupied them with Allah and the hereafter, then surely they would have reflected upon the intended meaning of his poignant words and verses. Their hearts would have returned to their masters with wisdom, marvelously curious and [in possession] of the rarest of precious gems. If the heart is nourished with remembrance, its thirst quenched with contemplation and cleansed from corruption, it shall witness remarkable and wondrous matters, inspiring wisdom. Not every individual who is endowed with knowledge and wisdom, and assumes its character is from amongst its people. Rather the people of knowledge and wisdom are those who infused life into their hearts by slaying their desires. As for the one who slays his heart and vitalized his desires, then knowledge and wisdom is naked upon his tongue. The destruction of the heart occurs by security [in this Dunya] and negligence, its fortification occurs by fear and remembrance. If the heart renounces the pleasures of the Dunya, it settles upon the [pursuance of] pleasures of the Hereafter, and amongst those who call towards it. Should the heart become content with the pleasures of the Dunya, those pleasures [of the hereafter] cease [to continue]. Yearning for Allah and his meeting is like the gentle breeze blowing upon the heart, extinguishing the blaze of the Dunya. Whosoever caused his heart to settle with his Lord shall be in a state, clam and tranquil, and whosoever sent it amongst the people shall be disturbed and excessively perturbed. For the love of Allah shall not enter a heart, which contains the love of this world, except as a camel, which passes through the eye of a needle. Hence, the most beloved servant before Allah is the one whom He places in His servitude, whom He selects for His love, whom He causes to purify his worship for Him, dedicates his objectives for Him, his tongue for His remembrance, and his limbs for His service. The heart becomes sick, as the body becomes sick, and its remedy is al-Tawbah and protection [from transgression]. It becomes rusty as a mirror becomes rusty, and its clarity is obtained by remembrance. It becomes naked as the body becomes naked, and its beautification is at-Taqwa. It becomes hungry and thirsty as the body becomes hungry and thirst, and its food and drink are knowledge, love, dependence, repentance and servitude.”